10 Things I Do For Myself

  1. Take more pictures than I could ever possibly need. Even if it annoys my kids or my husband, so what. I love having the pictures to look back at. (Like this one of me and my hubby that he didn’t wanna take.)    IMG_2698
  2. Keep a Wreck This Journal. (Keri Smith) Nothing else could possibly keep my creative juices flowing so well.
  3. Drink coffee. Coffee is…. heaven on earth. Possibly my favorite thing ever.
  4. Keep a blog. Although I am now terrible at keeping up with this, I still enjoy it immensely.
  5. Write in a journal. Well for me it is a composition book. Has been since high school. This is my place to ramble, complain, whine, brag, plan and anything else I can think of.
  6. Enjoy monthly subscriptions to Birchbox and Ipsy. I never was a big fan of makeup but getting all these new things to try all the time has changed that. $10 a month is DEFINITELY worth it for both of these.
  7. Try my best at work. I may not always be THE best at work, but I will be MY best, and that is all that matters.
  8. Sing. Anywhere and everywhere. Music is my release, my therapy, my sanity.
  9. Cuddle with my cat. I just read that hearing a cat purr I actually good for you. Raises hormone levels, or something like that. Not that I need a reason. I just love cuddling with Razzle.
  10. Read to my kids. I love that I a raising them to be book lovers. I love that they cry when we leave the library, that one book at bedtime is never enough, that Zander tries to read back to me. I’ll say that is parenting done right and give myself a pat on the back.

What do you do for yourself?

Letter Obsession.

Zander is obsessed with letters. As of now his favorite letter is H. Here are some pictures of him “writing” the letter H.

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Watching him grow is so much fun. Seeing him learn new things, get excited, laugh out loud. He did a dinosaur puzzle the other day and he was so proud of himself. Nothing beats seeing that smile on his face as he says, “Look mama! I did it!!”

Potty Success!

Who would have thought I could be so happy to see someone pee and poop in the toilet!! One of the odd joys of being a parent I suppose. The look on his face when he realized he was peeing and looked down was priceless. He was so shocked, and then very curious. After I told him how proud I was and gave him a high five he did a happy dance. Yesterday he pooped in the toilet and tonight he peed!! Hopefully this potty success continues. I’m so proud of this big boy!

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7 Things to 7 People

Josh: Go listen to “Giving Me A Chance” (Gotye). It pretty much sums up a lot perfectly. ♪You know I never wanna let you down, it cuts me up to see you sad.♪ I feel like out of the never ending to-do list, you often fall at the end of it. Which isn’t fair to you, you ARE NOT my last priority. You matter. You’re my husband. I really wanna focus on giving you more time, more energy, more ME. So let’s sit down and figure out the best way to do this. I love you, and I wanna make sure I show it every day.

Anonymous: The lyrics to “Dear Enemy” (The Exies) says this better than I ever could. I’m leaving this person unnamed because it is not about hurting anyone. It’s about letting some things of my chest and not bottling up all the anger. What I can assure you is this: if you are reading this, it is NOT about you. I promise. p.s thank you for showing me all the things not to become.

Mariesa: I know you saw the link I posted to the friendship blog. You reposted it. When I posted the link I had you in mind. I know I have that kind of friend in you, and it’s nice to have. You somehow manage to balance that accepting friendship role with constantly driving me to wanna improve myself. You give me encouragement, an ear to complain to and a safe place to be in when I just need some company. I look up to you and I aim to be this kind of friend to you as well. No matter how long we may go without talking or seeing each other because of our crazy, busy loves, I’m positive we’ll stay friends.

Betsy: I haven’t really known what to say to you in light of recent events. I feel so useless and completely void of anything that could possibly help you. All I can say is this: You are not alone. You have support, you have love, you have God. And although it may not be what you want to hear, CRY! I may not have really known your mom, but from everything I have heard she was fantastic (no doubt here, I mean she raised you, and look at how wonderful you are.). Crying for her, missing her, grieving for her is all in her honor. Let it out, fall apart, GRIEVE! You can worry about picking up the pieces a little later, for now you will make it. You will never stop missing her, but you never really should. You can do this Betsy, and I will be here for you whenever you need.

Nikki- Listen Linda….

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I hate how difficult life is for you right now. It seems wrong that so many hardships should be thrown at somebody so genuinely good. I know I haven’t known you for long, but that doesn’t change my opinion. You just need to remember: “courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying I will try again tomorrow.” (Mary Anne Radmacher) It is okay to cry, it is okay to hurt, okay to feel defeated. The important part is that at the end of it all you find the strength to pick yourself back up and make it through. It is that strength that I see in you. For all the times you have said, ” I can’t do this,” or “I give up,” or even “Imma murder (insert name) in the face!” you never do. And that is why I know you will be a good mom to Adele. You have fight in you Nikki, never let anyone beat that out of you.

My Crew: I know work sucks right now. I know it doesn’t do much to help, but it could be worse. I wish I could fix all the problems at our store, beat some sense into all those who mistreat you. I wish I could make the world a little more fair, a little less sucky, but I can’t. What I hope is that I can eventually show you that work can be fun. It was when I was a crew member and I really wanna get us back to that. You all deserve that. Until then, keep hanging in there. Despite how you may feel, you ARE appreciated. I promise.

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My Kids: I love you so much more than I could ever put into words. More than I could ever show. (even when you pull ALL the keys off my laptop and I can’t get the spacebar to work half the time now….) YOU COME FIRST! Never, ever doubt that. I hope you never have any reason to feel you don’t, but if you do I am sorry… and know it isn’t true. I will never be a perfect mom, but I promise you this: I will do the best I can with what I have. I will be a GOOD parent. I will make mistakes, but I will apologize and learn from them. But most of all I promise this: I will NEVER stop loving you.

Updates on the Kiddos

My, oh my the kids are growing up WAY too fast.

Kyrie is obsessed with her brother and loves to play whatever he is playing (which drives him CRAZY!) She thinks every animal either says “moo” or “arf” and will randomly start acting like a dog, down to barking out the window. She loves playing dress up, patty cake and driving mom crazy. Oh wait, that last one isn’t a real game. She has a signature dance move that kinda makes her look like a chicken and her best friend is our dog Lexi. Every stuffed animal is still a “baby”, and she has chosen a “blankie” that must go everywhere she sleeps. She learned how to kiss, but after a day of obsession she doesn’t really like it anymore. Can’t believe she will be two in April. Where did the time go?

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Zander talks non stop and asks for a hug whenever we leave the house. He is obsessed with tractors, monster trucks and trains. He still fights potty training, but loves to ask to use the potty at 2 am, or any other equally inconvenient time. He has a new found love for coloring and stickers that makes his Mommy very proud. He loves to sing Old McDonald and will even tell us which animal to use next. He has developed a terrible habit of waking up between 4 am and 8 am and knocking on our door till we let hi crawl in bed with him. (I do have to admit, I kinda like this on occasion.)

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My kids don’t play so well together usually, but when they do, the sound of both of them giggling melts my heart. Kyrie looks up to Zander so much, and I’m sure he will develop a grudging love for her someday. =) Love watching them grow up, but sure wish they would slow down a bit.

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